Inner Power & Nervous System: Reclaiming My Self
Before awakening, I didn’t even know I had inner power.
Honestly, it wasn’t something I’d ever felt. I was just a cog in the machine—doing what I was told, following the path laid out by my parents and their parents before them. Power? That was something other people had. Not me.
My nervous system? Never even thought about it.
Anxiety, stress, all the stuff we talk about now—it didn’t exist in my world. I was a man in a man’s world, and in my family, you just got on with it. You didn’t talk about feelings. You didn’t slow down. You just survived.
But here’s what I’ve learned:
Stress, anxiety, and depression aren’t just things that “happen” to us. For most of my life, I thought they were the result of the world beating me down. But the truth is, these feelings are signals—messages that something inside us needs attention.
My anxiety wasn’t about the outside world attacking me. It was about me not stepping forward, not becoming who I was meant to be. Every time I ignored my own needs, every time I let things build up and didn’t move, that’s when I felt most lost.
I believe anxiety and depression are what happen when we’re not living in alignment with our true selves—when we’re stuck, holding back, or afraid to move forward. It’s not just about what’s happening around us; it’s about what’s happening inside us, and whether we’re willing to listen.
Breathwork, meditation, cold plunges—these became my tools.
Not just to “cope,” but to push myself beyond the limits I thought I had. Every time I stepped into a cold plunge, every round of Wim Hof breathing, I was testing myself—not against the outside world, but against my own edges.
How did my body react? What did I feel after? Could I hold my breath a little longer, sit with the discomfort a little deeper?
I started to see that my reactions, my pain, my feelings—they weren’t just random. They were messages. And when I listened, I started to change.
Understanding my nervous system changed everything.
I’m calmer now. More relaxed. I have real control over my emotions. There’s a new kind of maturity, a deeper masculine essence that’s finally coming through.
I’ve managed to give up smoking, let go of addiction, and find my focus—all by learning to listen to my nervous system, to test and try what makes me feel stronger, clearer, more alive.
I’m not just my body anymore.
I’m a soul inhabiting a body. And for the first time, I feel like I’m actually here—present, awake, and becoming who I was always meant to be.
If you’re reading this and you feel overwhelmed or stuck, know this:
You’re not broken. Your anxiety is not your enemy—it’s your soul calling you to move, to change, to become. The more you listen, the more power you’ll find within yourself.